Finding out. Early days.

Hello.  Hello little one.  I've know about you for two days and I'm so worried about losing you.  I was very worried, always the worrier, about not being able to make you in the first due to my age (37) but here we are and with the first egg since I had my coil removed.  I can't believe it!  It feels like a miracle. 
I knew when I was ovulating but wasn't expecting it to work first time.  The books and websites say it could take 1-2 years at my age.  I'm so happy and buzzing with excitement.  I feel like I could burst and tell the world about you, my little one.  I can't though.  I have to keep you hidden away for a few months.  I have told my Mum and my brother and my best mates, Penny and Zoe.  I had to tell them; I'm so happy.
I've booked an appointment with the doctor for next Monday to talk about you and make sure everything's ok.  I'm excited about that too!  Sometimes I worry that my heart is racing due to being excited and that this may somehow hurt you.  I'm not running up or down stairs anymore and am being careful around the boisterous students at school. 
Finding out so early, two and half weeks along, is difficult.  I feel like I have to wait an eternity to meet you and find out that you're ok.  But it's actually a positive because I can make sure that I'm doing the best for you from a very early stage, I've given up caffeine and alcohol for instance.
I hope you're ok in there.  Keep safe and do what you need to do.
I love you x