Sesame seed

Hello little one.  How are you getting on?  My app says you're the size of a sesame seed and next week you'll treble in size to a grain of rice!  I'm obsessed with my app, every day it tells me something new about you.
The app has lists of popular names around the world.  I'm making girl and boy short lists, I know it's early but I can't help it.  I wonder what you are...
Wishing you well little one xxx

Heartbeat

This evening we watched Life Before Birth.  I think you're 20 days old today.  On the video it explains that your heart starts beating for the first time today.  It's amazing!  I watched and cried as I connected more with you.  I'm resting lots over the next fortnight for my Autumn half term holiday so no need need to worry, I'll be resting and keeping you safe little one X 

Life goes on

Life is going on around us.  No-one at work knows and I can't say, yet.  I want to scream it out loud.
I told my Dad and Liz yesterday and they were so very excited.  It was brilliant to hear that and to be excited with them too.
I feel like I'm carrying an egg through a train station during rush hour, keeping you safe from bumps and pushes.  It's scary.  Are you safe in there?  Are you OK?  Last night I was feeling pains in my lower stomach.  Was that you implanting?  Clinging on tight?

Finding out. Early days.

Hello.  Hello little one.  I've know about you for two days and I'm so worried about losing you.  I was very worried, always the worrier, about not being able to make you in the first due to my age (37) but here we are and with the first egg since I had my coil removed.  I can't believe it!  It feels like a miracle. 
I knew when I was ovulating but wasn't expecting it to work first time.  The books and websites say it could take 1-2 years at my age.  I'm so happy and buzzing with excitement.  I feel like I could burst and tell the world about you, my little one.  I can't though.  I have to keep you hidden away for a few months.  I have told my Mum and my brother and my best mates, Penny and Zoe.  I had to tell them; I'm so happy.
I've booked an appointment with the doctor for next Monday to talk about you and make sure everything's ok.  I'm excited about that too!  Sometimes I worry that my heart is racing due to being excited and that this may somehow hurt you.  I'm not running up or down stairs anymore and am being careful around the boisterous students at school. 
Finding out so early, two and half weeks along, is difficult.  I feel like I have to wait an eternity to meet you and find out that you're ok.  But it's actually a positive because I can make sure that I'm doing the best for you from a very early stage, I've given up caffeine and alcohol for instance.
I hope you're ok in there.  Keep safe and do what you need to do.
I love you x